Like a moth to a flame.
Beating my head against the brick wall because it feels good.
I saw WWW last night at Dance, and we had another great talk. Either she is a Master at Deception, or she is being completely honest with me. But how do I know if I am being honest with myself?
So we are going to continue to get to know each other, explore each other’s “baggage and stuff” and see where it goes. And she has said she is breaking off any physical relations she has with any others.
On one hand, she seems to be a woman with much heart to give, but has found herself with people that don’t want to receive it…so she seems to have tried to spread her heart around to get shallow bits from the Poly crowd. When asked specifically about her 2.5 years of “celibacy” with hanky-panky on the side, she is quite sincere in her belief of holding fast in not giving completely of herself to this Poly crowd.
So what the heck am I doing? I have no idea. I am circling the flame, knowing I will get burned, but wanting to feel the heat and see the light.
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Did some Karaoke afterward dance with some other people.
I sang:
I saw the Light- Hank Williams Sr.
Treat Her Like a Lady- Cornelius Brothers & Sister Rose
Sexx Laws- Beck
"Beating my head against the brick wall because it feels good." Been there more than once in my life. So, why didn't you add "Hurts so Good" to that amusingly apt set of songs you sang? Second times in two days I've ran across the title to that Cornelius Brothers and Sister Rose song, and I hadn't thought of it in a gazillion years. Weird...
ReplyDeleteI'm not going to offer anything else. There are a million song titles that come to mind, though. :)
How about Elton John's Don't Go Breaking My Heart? - T.
ReplyDeleteKeep communicating, I know that's not always easy for the male species, but you can do it!! btw loooooved the 'ode to the bench' you wrote for my image this morning, my but you do have a way with words!!
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