Friday, January 20, 2012

An Electric Word, Life

Tonight I am going to a 40th birthday party for a friend. Quite a few people will be getting up and doing a “bit” in front of the audience. Some people will sing a song, others will recite their poetry, a performance art skit thrown in somewhere, and a general mish-mash of artistic showiness.

I have always been an observer at these group gatherings. Standing up and doing something… a “bit” in front of these people that love and support me is incredibly terrifying.
I would like to push my boundaries tonight, and stand up, and do a bit.
Below is what I would like to say. What do you think? It’s kind of a downer I think for a birthday party.

Dearly beloved, we are gathered here today to celebrate this thing called life. Electric word, life. It means forever and that's a mighty long time…..

Happy Birthday XXXX, and Thank you for being exactly who you are.
 For everyone in this room. YOU are one of our favorite people.
YOU ARE Electric! And Full of Life.
And what does that mean to me?
*Because this whole party is all about me. Right?*
It means you have become a silent teacher for me.
You have unknowingly encouraged me to Stand Up! Feel The Music! Feel That Pulse of Life!
Cast off that self-doubt. Lift up my voice and sing with abandon …and be heard by others!  Embrace myself with my lightness AND my darkness.
To Make…A….Connection….with………..others.
All with a wink and a smile that holds a secret joy that promises there is more to be learned about this Electric word, life.
I’ve been asking myself a few questions lately……
How sure of that are you?
Very Certain?      Somewhat Certain?        Or, you think so?


I used to know the answer to that question.
So now I ask myself, How can I become my own favorite person?
And for me, the answer to THAT starts with the question of “ Who Am I ?”
And maybe even a deeper question…..
“Now that I am not the favorite person of Anybody, Who am I now?”


I don’t know how to answer any of those questions. But I’m working on it.
As we all do, I struggle to look deep within myself.
To Define myself.
To find that Passion and Purpose.
To live a life that is Full, and Electric.

So I look to you, This group, This Clan, This Family….

Help me express What becoming your own favorite person means to you ?

Help all of us answer the question of “Who Am I, Now?”


  1. That's big.

    You could begin with Dood, I remember when you got drunk and threw up every weekend, and now look at you. Vomiting only on special occasions! and see how that goes.

    The Good Luck Duck

    1. It is rather big.

      It's an artsy-fartsy feel-good Namaste crowd though.

      But yeah, it might be bit over-board.

  2. I think it is really nice. Anytime you open and and tell someone they have encouraged you - that is super kind. I say go for it. you will feel great afterward. Congrats on all the house stuff too. Just catching up on reading all your recent entries. T.

    1. Thank you, T!
      Pushing comfort zones is scary, but you are right, I will feel great afterward..... I hope :)

  3. Gotta say, not much I can add to The Good Luck Duck's post.
    I'm an extrovert, would have liked a party like that.

    1. they are a crazy creative bunch, and lots of fun. I feel very blessed to hang out with these folks.