I think my downer attitude is just the basic holiday blues.
I talked with my in-laws last night and they have invited me to their home for Christmas again. I don’t think I will go over there this year. My father-in-law and I talked again about a remembrance gathering for my wife on her birthday. It was a tear-filled phone call for me as I sat in the parking lot of a restaurant on my way to a Christmas dinner with my co-workers.
The last few days I have been looking at large vans/small RV’s again. I am seeing some really sweet setups for about $20,000. I’ve been thinking of forced motivation if I had a small RV. I would still work at my current job. I would want to join a gym for the nice showers. Hopefully a gym with a decent yoga instructor and frequent classes with multiple locations. It might force me to want to socialize more. God forbid, I call my friends every once in a while.
I will be going to an ugly sweater party on Friday night. Should be lots of fun, and hopefully will get the funk out of my face.
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